I was just thinking about maybe making a kind of soundtrack. Songs that make stories appear and maybe out of them there could be a continuing story... I at least have to find something that could bring out something to work on. Maybe that is what I need to do this summer. Figure out what I want to write about. I was ask the question not long ago what I want to write. And my answer was a mix between Tolkien, Helen Fielding (Bridget Jones) and Paulo Coelho. That could definitely be interesting:) Tolkien bringing the fantastic and the imagination into the work, Bridget Jones with the funny and often strange way of viewing life, and Paulo Coelho with the more mysterious and spiritual part.

Maybe I should find some songs and put them on my MP3 player, and listen to them over and over. And then make a document for each of them and just try to develop some short stories from each of them... Maybe. It would be an experiement and something to work with. Maybe there would be some similarities. Remember I told you about that Gåte song, Liti Kjersti. That I wanted to write something that felt like that song. Different songs put you in different moods. I love to have some sort of soundtrack... It would be a good experiment at least. And a way to try to tap into my imagination.

I know I love the extraordinary. I love symbols and the search for the extraordinary, those deeper things that makes life come alive.

I wrote this sentence the other day: It's something so great that once you've seen it, you'll never be the same again. I guess that is why I am so fascinated by the spiritual and sacredness of this world. Because there are so many things in the world that we cannot understand but still there is so much we can sense and many people (including myself) doubt it and think that maybe it is only in their heads. That their mind is playing tricks on them. There are so many stories told of ordinary people experiencing strange and unexplainable things that I believe it cannot be a mindtrick. There is something great out there. And inside of us all. I want to explore the unknown worlds, the unknown dimension of this world. I think I have known what I want to write about for years, I just need to find out how. I just have to experiment with it. Maybe that is why I so often end up writing what is going on inside the characters head, because that is where my stories are... I don't know.

But one thing I do know is that I will eventually figure it out. It gives me such pleasure just sitting in front of the computer writing this. I love to write. I am passionate about it. And I just need to do it, and eventually I will get a "homerun"... Then every story I have will come out and manifest itself. I need to believe so:) IT IS NOT JUST A DREAM. IT IS REALITY. MY REALITY...