Big news... I am moving))) I've got an offer I cannot refuse;) I tell you more about it next time we talk... I don't think I've quite understood yet. It's like a dream and I am waiting to wake up...

I just went to imdb and looked up The Hobbit... And it says that James McAvoy is rumoured to play Bilbo Baggins... I am not sure about that... I like him and all, but is he Bilbo... I mean Ian Holm is Bilbo... I guess he would do an honourable job of it))) I don't know if he will be Bilbo in the end, though))) But I will trust that Peter Jackson knows what he does)))

Historical fact:
8. June 793 the vikings raided the church of Lindisfarne. It is the beginning of the viking age in Scandinavian history.

Mineral Allies

agate - stability and balance
amber - absorbs and neutralises negativity
amethyst - feminine energy, calm
aquamarine - relaxation, calm
aventurine - healing, freedom
bloodstone - detoxification, strength
carnelian - motivation, confidence, action
citrine - confidence, communication, decision-making
coral - physical strength, determination
fluorite - creativity, spiritual awareness
garnet - activates passion and life force
jade - healing, soothing, abundance
lapis lazuli - spiritual awakening
malachite - calm, physical healing, peace
moonstone - feminine energy, love
pearl - love, femininity, moon, water
obsidian - masculine energy, groundedness
rose quartz - love, children, family, creativity
smoky quartz - abundance, wisdom
sodalite - spiritual awakening
sugalite - inner vision, meditation
tiger's-eye - groundedness, focus
tourmaline - neutralises negativity, psychic protection
turquoise - strength, success, fulfilment, protection

Plant and Herb Allies

basil - blessing, purification
camomile - calm, relaxation
dill - wealth, success
fennel - healing
foxglove - protection, emotional balance
garlic - protection, healing
ivy - protection, abundance
lavender - calm, relaxation
marjoram - marriage, love
mint - cleansing, refreshment
mistletoe - love, protection
mugwort - focus, healing
nettle - protection
rosemary - purification, stimulation
sage - cleansing, renewal
thyme - health, healing

Flower Allies

anemone - fertility
bluebell - good luck
daffodil - joy, success in business
daisy - innocence, joy
dandelion - strength, fortitude
gardenia - self-esteem, love
geranium - endurance
hibiscus - passion
honeysuckle - prosperity, abundance, joy
iris - feminine spirit
jasmine - sensual love
lilac - abundance, harmony
lily - divine femininity, purity, rebirth
marigold - protection, honouring the sacred
morning glory - joy, spiritual attunement
orchid - fertility, stamina
peony - longevity
rose - love, emotional healing, angelic kingdoms
sunflower - prosperity, fertility, success
tulip - abundance, sensuality
violet - spirituality, psychic healing

Tree Allies

alder - awakening courage to move forward
almond - abundance
aspen - overcoming fear, protection; in mythology Greek goddesses protected those who had aspen leaves
apple - healing, love, symbol of the Goddess Aphrodite; the mystical Celtic Avalon means ‘island of apples’
ash - balance, order, guardian; to ancient Celts this tree represented balance and was the guardian of the order of the universe
bamboo - good luck, prosperity
birch - new beginnings, renewal, the youthful aspect of the Goddess
cedar - detoxification, purification; Cherokees believe this tree provides powerful strengthening
chestnut - fertility, great strength
elder - moon energy, grace, honour; associated with the Goddess
elm - feminine power, love
eucalyptus - renewal, purification
fir - cleansing, renewal, releasing stagnant emotions
hawthorn - love, healing negative emotions, birth; associated with Blodeuwedd, the Welsh goddess of spring
hazel - inspiration, communication, knowledge
holly - regeneration, female blood-of-life
juniper - protection, purification, in the Himalayas Sherpas bless and purify their ropes with the smoke of juniper boughs
maple - prosperity, ability to adapt to new circumstances
oak - strength, fortitude, courage, faith
olive - peace, healing
pine - purification, cleansing negative emotions
plum - love, protection
rowan - protection, strength, magical realms; sacred to Brigit, the Celtic goddess of protection
sandalwood - wisdom, spirituality
sycamore - strength, vitality, feminine energy
willow - moon cycles and water, emotional healing, intuition, divine feminine spirit
yew - regeneration, rebirth, letting go of the old and embracing the new

Animal Ally

alligator - formidable strength, power
ape - primitive power, intelligence
bat - ancient wisdom
bear - mother earth, healing
beaver - hard work, prosperity through your own efforts
buffalo - abundance, harvest and plenty
bull - great strength, force, power
camel - endurance, getting through a difficulty
canary - harmony
cat - intuition, feminine essence
chameleon - adaptability, flexibility
cobra - life-force energy
deer - fertility, grace, joy
dog - faithfulness, loyalty, friendship
dolphin - playfulness, spontaneity, intelligence
dove - peace, freedom
eagle - spirituality, far-sightedness
elephant - power, mindfulness
elk - power, beauty, dignity
fish - emotional flow, feminine energy
fox - intelligence, physical attraction
frog - abundance, prosperity
horse - freedom, movement, beauty
leopard - prowess, sensuality
lion - majesty, power, bravery, leadership
otter - capriciousness, playfulness
owl - wisdom, feminine power, transformation
peacock - confidence, celebration, pride in oneself
polar bear - healing, strength
rabbit - prosperity, abundance, fertility
ram - masculine strength, pioneering spirit
raven - wisdom from unseen realms
rhinoceros - male sexuality
robin - harbinger of good tidings, new beginnings
salmon - being in the flow, moving ahead against all odds
seal - grace, emotional balance, curiosity
snake - womanly power, healing, spiritual awakening
swan - beauty, strength, gliding to new heights
tiger - prowess, power, strength
turtle - grounding, abundance
vulture - ancient goddess, purification
whale - perception, intuition, power
wolf - community, social connection, family support

One Ring to rule them all...

How do one come up with the great ideas...?

The boy who lived

I wonder how they felt when they sat down to write...?

In a hole in the ground there lived a hobbit.

It is amazing how a writers mind can make these stories up with just their ideas and intentions...

So dark the con of man

Daring to explore the impossible, shaking everything to the core, finding the darker secrets of humankind, exploring hidden world, creating new worlds...

There exists no separation between gods and men; one blends softly casual into the other.

I need a vision... My goodness I am so tired of that... I need to explore my vision.. Because somewhere inside of me it is hiding, waiting for me to find the courage to actually meet it head on...

There was Eru...

Take a deep breath now. Relax, and don't get consumed by the thoughts that you cannot do this. Everything starts from some place... And here it comes again... I start in the dark:)

You can never really foresee what is going to happen in life. There are so many fickle turns it can take, and it all depends upon the choices you make, but it will be good even though it feel bad at the time you might feel some sort of regret. And if it is a bad choice maybe it is because at the time you were making it, you didn't follow your gut feeling. There is no encoding of life; no book to make you any wiser or anything. It is something you make up as you go and mistakes are made, but they are made so you don't have to do them again.

Even though my life has felt dreadful at times, I try never to lose hope. Like we are writing our stories now. It is so great. I have for example admitted to myself that I have never had any plan or vision for my life. I had dreams and stuff, but they have all kind of faded in the day dreaming and in running away from the fact that I don't really know how I am going to achieve my goal (those that I have never set for myself). Now that is going to change. Out of habit, I want to to write, I am going to try... Never learn... I have to trick my petty little mind to let my heart get a say in my life from now on:)

I am going to write. God knows I have enough material to last me for at least two years:) It is going to be fun to transform (was going to write try there again...) my experiences and thoughts and all that onto paper... No category, or telling what it is going to be, no nothing. I think I can find lots of cool stories there))) I know Cath can give me inspiration to lots of stories:) And other people that we talk about too... Lots if I just dare to see it, but of course being a little self-centered this summer:) I want to write about me:) Sort of take a reckoning of my life to move it forward. Of course these are just ramblings which we are getting used to by now:)

One things for sure! I want to brighten up my mood. Not get so very down below zero if you know what I mean. I want to laugh and have fun. I am so tired of everything being so seriously serious... I have all the resources that I need right here... I cannot spend all of my time worrying. I should probably have a worrying notebook, and a notebook for being grateful. Just to actually get a reasonable perspective about my life... So that I can lay tracks:) Virginal territory so to speak:)

I found this one amongst my papers... Could be a good beginning on something...

Into a circle of fire
In their eyes there are flames dancing
They are calling to me, calling me to them
Winter is fading
Summer won’t soften my eyes
A child of ice and fire, of water and air
Pure be the heart that looks behind the veil
A child of the living and breathing earth
A wind passes through me
The shadows grow long
The veil between the worlds are lifted
There stands an empty throne
Every part of me spring into life
My defences are crumbling
My fate is hidden from me
We are worlds apart
I leave this world behind and enter into another
Lady of night, come wrap your wings around me
I am alone, wandering in the dark
I see the flame in their eyes in the darkness