I have been out enjoying the beautiful weather in Oslo today with Cath. Sitting on a bench waiting for the train, I wrote a little with the thought of a slug for today. Here's what I wrote:

"I am thinking about what to do this summer every single day now. Not every single minute but close enough. Now the trap is that it stays on the thinking level. It is a necessary step, but I have a tendency to stay there. That it ends up with the idea of doing something. But I feel a shift too. I feel more determined to put my ideas into being, into the world. It's a strange sensation. It is almost like my aura is cleansed and giving way for a new beginning where I can begin to release my creativity. I am also starting to let go of the future. There's no use in planning too much. Maybe doing that will close another door because I am so focused on what I have planned."

There is a chance that we have a tendency to think things to death. Somehow we stop ourselves before we even get started. We think about where to begin, but maybe there is no place to begin. It is just starting and letting the road show itself to us? When I think about it, it sounds so good, but doing it is something else. I feel that I don't get down into anything. It is just words. What is it that I want to say? What is important? Is it having the dream or is it making the dream come alive? Maybe it is both. I was thinking about it. I know I want to write, but I don't know in what form the writing will come. And for now I am fine with it. I am fine with not knowing, but that doesn't mean that I won't write. I love writing. Just letting myself go like now, writing these slugs, I love it. Just not trying to think about what to write, just write what lies at the end of my fingertips in a way. I like that. And the more I do it, the more clearly things will become. I still write about the same things, nothing changes but I still love it. Just seeing the words float unto the screen. Letting myself go. I will continue to explore. Not putting a name on anything. Just writing.