I am ready

Today I will start my summer's body of work. I will make my way through disbelief and doubt, and come victorous on the other side. It is all about the search. I think sometimes I get too distracted with the goal of doing art and writing, that sometimes the process and the road is lost and then I get all confused and frustrated and then I often enough give up. I am beyond giving up now. I don't want to worry about what has not happened yet, and get my focus right. Take the chance of letting myself fall into the depth of the imagination and creativity.

I want to play around with words. Find the big words and the small ones in between. I want to explore the sacred realms of my world, hunt for some meaning of everything that has happened. I want to give colours to a white canvas, shape them into the images of my heart. I want to let my heart take flight and free myself of my fear. I want to become more of myself. I want to feel inspiration fill me up within, and may it be so clear and strong that I can no longer ignore it. May I get a little closer in finding my purpose. May I find my secret longings and find the true heart that is required by the Seeker of the Grail. May I wander into the lands in the mist and venture from there with treasure beyond measure of gold and money.

The colours are blue and green.
The words are sacred femininity.
The Warrior and the Priestess melting together.
The Earth and the Heavens.
The balance between mind and spirit.
We are one, the warrior and the priestess...

I am feeling a warmth in my heart and stomach. Like if I only let go a little everything will shift and the thick fog will become a little lighter and I will see more clearly. My third eye will spring open like a lotus flower. The light will become more brightly and I will know. The angels are here. I found a white feather in my bed today. A sign that my guardian angel is here supporting me. And that where I am going today is on the right path. Now I am ready to step out on the path, I am ready to become the ring-bearer. I am ready.