I was just thinking about what happened yesterday, and how we always seem to clash. Then I was thinking about the abundance ballon and how it said for the higher good. Maybe it is for the higher good that we actually do have these clashes of ego. Maybe that is our lesson in all of this, not to give up and only focus on ourselves, but actually take a step back and learn to co-operate and collaberate. Maybe we haven't seen what we are capable of doing because we never gave it a chance at all.
It was just a thought. I guess the higher good isn't always what we think is the best, but after a while we will understand that it is. I don't think we should give it up this time, but take the "battles" as they come. That way we will develop and maybe even learn something about ourselves, and each other (and I wasn't thinking in a bad way). We end up here again and again, and we stop because we might be looking at it the wrong way. Maybe we are suppose to clash like that!! And maybe that is why we do it every single time and will continue to do so, because we are not facing the real problem. Maybe we could even use this into a screenplay too))) Because it is not uncommon to have these clashes where we think it is important to protect our own "interests" so to speak, instead of perhaps actually taking a step away from ourselves.
Of course, I cannot speak for you, but I think there is a reason for us coming back to this place time and time again. Since we've known each other, I think it is at least the fifth time or so. That must mean something. And this time it didn't take more than one hour. That I think is a sign that it is time to walk through it and have all the clashes we need to have and "fight" it out and try to learn what is really behind them. Honest being a key word...)) And we should be able to have them without every losing sight of the higher good. We should use it and turn it into something good that will help us move on and reach another level. There will always be conflicts in a creative relationship. Always... But there is nothing that cannot be used to reach the higher good.
I think this is a so-called golden opportunity. And we have learnt from the past never to overdo it anymore))) One small step at a time... We should do freewrites, maybe about a situation, a word or a trait... Just look at all the stuff we did find out about the word butterfly. We should try out different kinds of dialogue. Just being two people having a conversation that is not us. And see what comes from it. In that way we will build good foundations and we will become better and better at it... And we should clash again and again, because we will look at it perhaps as a creative process instead of a power struggle. Because we know we are both powerful enough to stand on our own feet)) Rambling now. I guess you know what I mean by now)))
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I think we need to get through these clashes too. It's just very difficult to know where to start when we are against each other's ideas.
I think the only way we can do a screenplay is to write about what we know about together. And what we know about together is how we interact with each other. . . so we should use that. In my opinion. It doesn't have to be us, necessarily. But we should take what we know about. . .
I have to go now, but we'll talk about this later.
Well, I am not against your ideas. What I was against was two main characters in the busjourney story. That was all.
We need to start at scratch. That is all. No previous ideas. A clean canvas. That is where we have to start. And we start with words. Both those we had and new ones.
Take the conversation from yesterday. Everything we talked about for ideas was put down by the other person yesterday. In my view, thats being against our ideas. How can we possibly just go with the flow if we aren't allowing anyone to express themselves? And it wasn't just on the bus journey. We analyze everything, it seems and don't really understand what the other is saying. We've already run into this on a clean canvas. We'll try, yes. But I think we need to understand or set some "guidelines" or something. . .I don't know. I'm really confused lately and the more I try to figure things out the more confused i get. I just think in order to have fun, we have to find a way to feel equal, accepting, understanding, and to just roll with it. . . to flow with each other's ideas.
I still think it would be awesome to take what we know about us, because we can't disagree so much on how we act. . .
Dunno, just idea.
I guess what we need is something that we both can agree with.
And nothing ever comes down all at once. It's like not seeing the trees because of the forest. We have to look at ever tree, I guess. I guess I am not as lost as you are. I don't see it as a problem. Okay, we clash and we feel angry and shut down to each others idea, but I can only see growth coming out of it. Try to look at it as a positive thing!!
Let's just battle it out. Disagree with each others ideas. Get angry. As long as we don't leave the conversation angry. That it is like a worry break perhaps. One of the world's issues is communication. I guess we have to experiment with both the good and the bad feelings. Isn't that how we move on. Let the things that are have a say. Usually if there is running, there is something to run from...
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