The suffering I have felt doesn’t need to be. In this exact moment, what do I feel? I don’t feel like I am suffering right now, so am I suffering then?

How do I teach myself to live in the now? When I think about it, the more I understand that I am living either in the past or in the future. I worry about this that has already happened, or about things that has not yet passed. If I am afraid that I will fail in the future, will I not set myself up to fail?

There are so many thoughts in my mind right now. I am feeling that I might have a breakthrough any day. It just feels like I have to dig deeper and deeper. I don’t know what will happen at all, but I am willing to give it a chance. I will see what happens and if I actually will be able to set the past and future free…