I love the idea of CS Lewis about entering Narnia... That it cannot be found if you look for it.
I love this picture and it reminds me of a place just like Narnia; a place that you can only enter when you do not seek it... It's got this dreamy feeling over it. Makes me want to be that woman dancing between the trees in the silvery moonlight. It draws me into this fantastical world. Almost like a world between space and time, a place that is alive somewhere beyond reality. It is a place where I am free and blissful...
Dancing in moonlight
Memories of dreams to come
Foreseen and untold
Namárië!
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I'm guessing this is a type of reminder for me, as well. ;)
But there are many things that have been found by seeking them too. I can't believe that searching for truth could be the wrong way. . .
I have never said that searching is a bad thing and that you cannot find anything by searching for it. I am just saying that I like the idea of things finding us instead of the other way around...
And I try to remind myself that life is in the here and now and that if you get too caught up in whatever you want to happen, you miss out on what is happening to you right now... And in that way life can pass you by... That's all. But of course you have to go out and try to find things too... Like if you want a friend you can't sit inside all day... You have to go out and meet people and be open to the idea that they can add something...
There is a part of me that wants to do just that. But to be honest, I'm really tired. Trying to be social is exhausting and I shrink from most social contact because I just don't feel like going through it all. I wonder if maybe it would be better if I just went into hybernation somewhere. . . ;)
I have friends here, but none that I feel comfortable around. One is always busy and we don't have much in common except writing. Abby is getting ready to go to college and doesn't seem to have time to meet for coffee and french. Desiree doesn't talk to me or any of our friends anymore and I called and her phone was disconnected. One got pregnant and moved away. Then a few others are all backstabbers anyway.
So I just don't think it's worth making much of an effort right now. Maybe later when my life is more together.
And I'm not even going to approach the subject of guys, because my whole psyche is revolting on that aspect right now.
(the negativity is due to another mopey day. my apologies)
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