Smile

Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though its breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
Youll get by...

If you smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
Youll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
Thats the time you must keep on trying
Smile, whats the use of crying
Youll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...

Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though its breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
Youll get by...

If you smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
Youll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile...

Thats the time you must keep on trying
Smile, whats the use of crying
Youll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

The day my heart stopped

This has been a day of grief, deep and utterly devasting. He is not here, alive among us anymore. After the first shock of Michael being dead, I struggle with understanding it. I just cry and then I go to the disbelief mode again. I just cannot wrap my brain around it. I know he is still here, but physically he is gone, and that makes me feel so much more alone. I have his music, but he isn't here. And that's just so incredibly sad. My heart is breaking. I can feel it physically break.

I cannot write anymore today, because I can't stop crying.